last night i had an experience of extreme frustration. there was a knowing that the little i could not do anything to get to the place of no self, to the experience of enlightenment. there was a knowing that the little i can never get there. it wanted to get there, but knew it was impossible to get there…from the little me.
i wanted to “do” something to get there, but realized “doing” can’t get us there. it was very frustrating. there was a deep knowing that the little i can’t get there, it never will and never can. nothing can be “done” to get there. see this Unmani video
3:55 “awareness can’t be viewed because who would be viewing it? awareness isn’t an object, it’s the subject.”
5:03 “anything that isn’t permanent isn’t reliable.”
i guess this is why there are teachings that say give up all ‘wants’ and ‘desires.’ because ‘wants’ and ‘desires’ are from the little me.